Saturday, January 31, 2009

the last time

The first time I fell in love was long ago.
I didn't know how to give my love at all.
The next time I settled for what felt so close.
But without romance, you're never gonna fall.
After everything I've learned;
Now it's finally my turn.
This is the last time I'll fall... in love.
The first time we walked under that starry sky,
there was a moment when everything was clear.
And I didn't need to ask or even wonder why,
because each question is answered when you're near.
And I'm wise enough to know
when a miracle unfolds,
this is the last time I'll fall in love.
Now don't hold back, just let me know.
Could i be moving much too fast or way too slow.
'Cause all of my life, I've waited for this day.
To find that once in a lifetime,
this is it, I'll never be the same.
You'll never know what it's taken me to say these words.
And now that I've said them, they could never be enough.
As far as I can see,
there's only you and only me.
This is the last time I'll fall in love.
Last time I'll fall in love.
The last time I'll fall... in love.

that's a song that "kuya bodjie" shared with me earlier. that's also one of the triggers for my impromptu crying moment. that plus kuya bodjie's account of his impromptu sweet and ultra romantic gesture to mrs. kuya bodjie using said song hit a nerve that i thought was long dead and the tears just kept coming. i really don't know what it was about it exactly that reduced me to an emotional heap of tenderness and sentimentality despite being in the middle of a work session but i'm glad it did even for just a while. this told me that i'm not as detached and uncaring as i thought i was. i could actually still get touched by these things in a very quick, unexpected, and spontaneous way. i can still feel somehow after all.

to kuya bodjie, thanks for sharing your very special song and story with me. it's so heartwarming to know that you never tire in creating these special moments with the love of your life...

Friday, January 30, 2009

expectations

a friend told me once that if you don't expect, you will never be "forever" heartbroken. but i ask that friend of mine now: won't it be heartbreaking all the same if you knew that someone never expected anything from you? wouldn't it seem like, "you're not worth investing in, so you're not worth expecting from...?" aren't expectations indicators of hopes and wants and wishes and desires? aren't expectations indicators of trust and faith that you can give and have something to give to someone else? and isn't this a defining aspect of being truly human?

heart and mind

the heart tells you where to go and the mind tells you how to get there...

alagad ng sining

matagal ko nang pinapangarap na magkaroon ng ganitong uring pagtatala ng aking mga saloobin at pagmumuni sa araw-araw. nais kong pag-aralan ito dati ngunit nanaig ang katamaran at pangangatwiran na kulang ako sa panahon, tiyaga, at pagpupursigi upang tuklasin at matutunan ang pagbuo ng ganitong pagpupunyagi. kaya naman lubos ang aking pasasalamat kay andres na nagbigay buhay sa ninanais kong ito sa pamamagitan ng pagbabahagi ng kanyang oras at husay sa paglikha nito. isa siyang tunay na alagad ng sining sa kanyang patuloy na ipinamamalas na galing sa mga ganitong bagay. saludo ako sa iyo, andres...

ang iyong kambal sa nakaraang buhay,
teban

Thursday, January 29, 2009

steve's first picture in her planet




this is my favorite picture of ours, steve. i am using it as a dummy picture for your html tutorial. now that brings so much disgrace to this sacred piture. so am gon copy-paste from here cos av none much to say... andres

steve's brilliant lil' planet

hey steve! wei gehts! so ye got ye own lil' planet up the web now. visist this anytime you feel like throwin up juices of sorts... will be visitin this page when i get to the farm so that even if i don't hear from you at least i get to read ye stuff... andres