tonyang and teban

i miss these random photo op sessions me and toni used to have at work... glad we got to do it again after such a long time...

steve and air

here's a pic of steve trying to hide behind air. the air is so thick around steve...it tickles... a ticklish air is a fun air. and steve is an air sign... especially the middle air...it's so ticklish, it's not even funny... but the rest sometimes are... and as they say, you can't breathe with no air -- andres

p.s. this is in connection with andres' blog which should be read first...here's the link

letters... from rainer maria rilke

"i want to beg you, as much as i can...to be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves like locked rooms and like books that are written in a very foreign tongue. do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. and the point is, to live everything. live the questions now. perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it live along some distant day into the answer."

my lil bro from d'planet

a special belated birthday greeting is in order...for my lil bro from d'planet -- andres. a month ago, you shared your fave pic of ours, now lemme share my fave pic of you and me (thanks to kuya bodjie for taking this). i know you're now 32 (hihi) but to me, you'll always be 20 years younger...my very own lil 12-year-old bro, especially in this pic. :p

happy birthday cocoy! -- from your big (lil) sis

reunion

just got home a couple hours ago from dinner with my 2 best friends whom i haven't seen in a while. it was great catching up with them again. i realized i missed them much more than i thought i did. i never thought that after 10 or so years of doing this with them that i'd still be as excited to talk to them as if we were just getting to know each other the first time. who'd have thought that after 10 or so years, after all the changes we've gone through, both individually and as a group, that we'd still be talking non-stop, some about the same things and some of new things. it was so easy to slip into that familiar mode and usual routine of talking after not seeing much of each other lately. the 5 hours together seemed to just fly by. it's like we never left and we just saw each other the other day. i, for one, never thought i'd maintain such a longstanding friendship with others. me being the antisocial loner/hermit, i never thought i'd appreciate and crave for this that much. but these 2 have been crucial to me opening up to others. i feel that i'm more in touch with my emotions, and more expressive of my feelings to others because of what i learned from them. i guess i've come a long way and they're the 2 people who can truly attest to that as they've seen the me before and the me now.

i'm really glad we all got together again after so long. they are truly one of my "real" support groups that has stood the test of time. we've had our skirmishes in the past, some highs and lows, and even dryness in the friendship, but here we are after more than a decade still talking, still understanding, still listening. we've changed so much with each other and yet we've also changed so little. we've seen the best and worst of each other, but we're still here with each other. i used to think i didn't need people that much in my life, but these 2 have proved me wrong. i do need people and i do need them especially in my life.

i feel extremely blessed to have them in my life caring and looking out for me always... as a tribute to this friendship, here's a video clip from a movie all 3 of us love and adore. it's interesting how we all watched this separately but still connected with it and raved about it the same way. we really are friends. :) i know we're more boring and less crazy, and less quirky, and less funny, than these characters... but everytime i watch this film, i can't help but think of the 3 of us...

to myly and monique... i love you both... and i will always cherish our friendship... hope we remain this way forever. :)

p.s. sorry for the mush but the only reason i'm writing this way and pouring my heart out like this is 'coz of you two... for this, you've got no one to blame but yourselves. hehe...

avenue q

reminiscing back to my avenue q days... just finished listening to the whole CD again after years without it... makes me feel good and grounded and real again even if it sucks to be me at times, as i'm still trying to find my purpose, while thinking that everyone's a little bit racist once in a while, when the internet is for porn anyway, after having created a mix tape, hoping that fantasies come true, despite the fact that there's a fine, fine line between love and a waste of time (this goes out to tones), realizing that there is life outside your apartment when all you can think about is the more you ruv someone, the more you want to kir them, intensely feeling schadenfreude, as you tell yourself, "i wish i could go back to college," until you finally accept and are relieved that everything in life is only for now...

angels brought badong here

i simply loved this moment from our very own idol who wowed everyone with this performance. she truly seemed brought by angels to us to make eveyone smile. we're proud of you alice and we will always be.

congrats tones

this is dedicated to esme/alice aka tones... i know i'm not really a tennis enthusiast, but i was really touched and impressed by these 2 champions' sportsmanship, grace, and (brotherly) love for each other on and off the court...

mabuhay si rafa & roger!!!